Slacking Off

Every once in a while I do something silly, like sleep in bed all day. I know, I know, it's me avoiding something. Today, I saw my 75 year old Aunt who had traveled from Ohio to Illinois in 6 hours yesterday, attended one funeral, and then traveled another 2-3 hours to visit a relative in a nursing home, and lastly came to a 3 hour dinner at my mother's house. Just the dinner wore me out! So what am I avoiding in life I wonder. I certainly should have more energy than my elder in this case.

Can social work be so tiring that on off days we collapse, mentally and physically? Of course, this doesn't always happen to me, but wow it really felt good to hide in a warm bed, playing with my pet cat, and hearing the silence of the morning turning into afternoon then early evening. I was in control of nothingness. It felt good to rebell! But now I have to get myself up and ready to counsel others, with a feeling of guilt that I can't waste a day like that again.

I kind of have to snap back into their reality of chaos and feeling overwhelmed by life and care-giving. My head is spinning, but after the first call of the night I'm back in the game! What a topsy-turvey few days it has been.